if only it was as simple as going to those fortune tellers along the boardwalk in atlantic city, or knowing whats going to happen because my cookie said so.. if only, right? well since it's up to me and not a cookie or some lady who wants to see my palm, what i would like is...
· a new job - sure retail is fun, but i don't want to be one of those people who get sucked into retail for life. i'm 20 and all the new people in there are 17. it's depressing that i'm getting too old, but i know it's time for a change. i'd like to find a simple desk job which could turn into something bigger and better in a few years. i've seen it hundreds of times that the small time clerk moves up in the company all based on the connections they had. i'd kill for that opportunity. ok if this new job fails then i wouldn't mind being a manager for the company, I want to be part of the "New Stores Team". They open all brands of the company across the world.. They travel for free and seem to have fun. So yeah.. I might have to sell my soul to Abercrombie and Fitch for a few more years..
· to build my own life - i'd love to be on my own, have a place of my own and strictly pay homage to myself (ok not entirely). but i always take care of other people and worry about them. i'm technically the youngest sister, yet i'm held to be the oldest figuratively. i know people need help, but it's a bummer when you're responsible for more than you should be. so i want a great job with a great place of my own. i'm sure everyone wants this in their future.
· to contribute - so after college, and after i find that new job.. i'd love to contribute to building my parents a home in the philippines. my parents aren't the youngest and they eventually wanna live there when i'm "grown up". so they deserve that after putting up with me for this long.
so how to get there? i think i need to be more aggressive with job hunting and junk. i know that i am capable of it all, and the fact that i'd like to do it mostly for my family is motivation in itself.
..ok aside from all that stuff, i wouldn't mind winning the lotto, jumping out of a plane, being a trophy wife, meeting edward cullen, and living happily ever after like cinderella `=P